While listening to music en route to UMass, bringing Ashley back for her last semester, I began to think about the conductor of a symphony and how carefully each part and player is chosen. Once musicians are chosen for a part, much time is spent rehearsing the part over and over again until it is flawless.
Next comes the blending of the orchestra – parts, timing, crescendos and decrescendos, emphasis on one part over another, interpretation. The list could certainly go on, but my point is made. I then began to think about my work as a parent and clinician, sometimes both, as my girls have always asked me to be active and pro-active in their care. It can be a delicate balance with how much involvement to have with patients and family alike.
I’ve generally toggled this space very well and what I’ve noticed as I’ve grown and matured, is that I no longer hold onto the outcome as I once did. In my earlier years as a young healthcare professional, I was intent on healing the world and being right in my conclusions, often researching beyond my scope of practice (I still do the research-it’s part of me!). I no longer need to be right, but instead, follow my intuition, stepping in when necessary and backing off as well. In the end, I visualize the outcome being positive, then let it go, much like a baby bird in flight.
This new phase, wiser phase of life, feels so much more rewarding, as I am not caught up in my ego, but rather keeping with the intention of desiring the greatest good for all.
Older and wiser,