As I wrote last week about resurfacing health challenges - in fact the most difficult of all - the gut, I realized a gift in the making. This process, long, drawn out and painful, has purpose and intention far beyond what meets the eye.
Each day was a new day and what kept me going was knowing my purpose here on this human plane. I am here to serve, I am here to experience challenge but not to succumb to it, I am here to continue to learn how to love and honor what I need.
It would have been so easy to call in sick - oops, I am the boss, but I had patients awaiting my knowledge and support. This literally got me through my day. I also honored myself more than ever by cancelling social and outside business plans that were not in my immediate "need to do" list. I rested more. And of course, I went to yoga most every day.
There were days on my yoga mat when by belly hurt to lay on the floor, but by the end of the hour, I was more balanced, refreshed, tuned up so to speak. There were days too, when I looked about 6 months pregnant, bulging over my yoga pants and yet, I kept going.
This bloated belly did not stop me and this was such an amazing win on many levels. I have worked in eating disorders for over 35 years, counseling women, men, girls and teens, struggling with various eating disorders and body image issues.
I came to this work from my own background with compulsive eating and know all too well, body dysmorphia. I was challenged with this as a teen and young adult. In some ways, I wonder who escapes this body denigration since as a society, so much emphasis is put on what's on the outside rather than on the inside.
I felt pretty triumphant in that how I felt and looked did not stop me from taking care of my patients or myself. My sense of self has strengthened during this challenging few weeks and I do know that when the spirit heals, so follows the body.
To be continued . . .
Julie
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